It has been 20 days since my last
confession blog post. YIkes! July has been one hectic month. Lots of decision-making, lots of lifestyle-changing, and lots of new adventures. All in 20 days. I would say that the most of my life has been consumed by the following:
1. Running. Each day that passes bring me closer and closer to the Richmond Marathon. I am absolutely
calm and feeling prepared for the big day terrified. I seemed to have no motivation to go through with my training which began on July 9th officially.
I knew the day would come when it would all just feel right. So I pushed through my weekly runs and a long run on the weekend, but feeling nothing but a struggle.
Then- finally- I got my motivation. Friday night, I found myself excited for my long run the next morning. Then the morning rolled around and I knocked those 7 miles out like it was nobody’s business! I felt fast and weightless and it was the most amazing feeling. I even full-on sprinted the last half-mile.
For running junkies out there who are obsessed with analyzing splits, my total time was 1hour 18minutes and 20seconds. My average pace was 11minutes and 11seconds.
11:11?? Um, if that was not a sign of good luck then I don’t know what is! 11:11 is faster than my usual race pace so I was pretty pumped.
When I tell people I am a runner and am training for a marathon, everyone just assumes I am fast as lightning. If I ask someone to join me on a run, I often get one of the following answers:
- “Oh, but you’ll show me up.”
- “Sure! But I doubt I can keep up with you!”
- “Absolutely not.”
I think it’s funny though! I love going long distances, but I don’t think that speed will ever be in the cards for me and I’m okay with that. So, world, if I invite you on a run with me, please do not be expecting fast speeds and sprint drills. I am even down to take a few walk breaks now and then (maybe, we’ll see!).
So, there you have it. Running has consumed much of my thought process and therefore stifled my desire to write. BUT after my slight running epiphany, I am back on track and have tons of blog post ideas.
2. Interning. Ah! As the fiscal year comes to an end, we are getting slammed with contracts. I am loving all the experience that I have gained in helping to write the proposal. I’ve written bios, formatted resumes, created an organizational chart, developed a quality control plan, and adapted a conflict of interest policy.
Hello, real world, is this was life is really like after college? Oh good Lord. I am in for it.
I love the busy-ness of business, but I am definitely excited to get back to my college life in August.
Being financially-secure because of my supportive parents and yet living on my own and making my own decisions. It’s a perfect balance of both worlds. Which brings me to my last thing that has kept me busy the past few weeks.
3. Crazy summer life! With interning and trying to act a little bit more than my age entails, I might have forgotten that I am still a kid! I have been slowly moving on from the Big Break-Up of 2012 and remembering what it is like to be free and independent. It’s so different not having to think of someone else whenever I am making plans. It’s just me and what I want to do and you know what? It is pretty dang awesome! So here is a slight montage of my summer life in July.
Being silly with my sisters’ friends at her graduation party.
(Side note: I played on a moonbounce and ate deep-fried oreos – if that’s not kid-like, then I don’t know what is!)
Going to barbeques and playing on giant, inflatable water slides. (And having my own cabana boys… duh.)
Having TONS of girls’ nights and loving every second of it!
So July has been crazy, but I think it has brought me a little closer to really re-identifying myself. Seeing myself in terms of another person (my ex) for two and a half years felt safe. I always knew my plans and always knew who would be by my side. Suddenly being on my own brought me anxiety and uncertainty. This month, I began feeling more secure in who I am and more accepting of my new situation in life. I feel mature and responsible with my internship; free and youthful with my new social life; and strong and determined with my marathon training.
It’s a crazy world and I am okay with it.
Until tomorrow (because I promise I will be posting!),